242, Dammit

Grrrrrr… still stuck at 242. Now I’m getting pissed off. No white carbs in a while, though! Now I just have to cut down on the amount of fat I’m consuming. For instance, last night I had hot wings for dinner. While low carb, not exactly low fat. Especially when you dip them in bleu cheese! OK, so shakes or salads for dinner from now on, at least until I’m comfortably back into the 230s. Exercise has also been shite the last couple of days – no good excuses really, just tired and have other things to do. I must make that my # 1 priority every day. Treadmill in the morning, then Curves after work. Easy. Tonight we've got our regular Thursday evening dinner at our friends' house, and I've been charged with picking up a shitload of Maui Ribs for us to BBQ. So, I'll have one of those and a big salad, but NO beer. Seriously, NO beer. Maybe a rum and diet Coke though - don't want to disappoint Captain Morgan now, do we??? Heh. Big non-scale victory for me today though - someone brought a big box of Timbits (donut holes) in - they are my weakness - and I have turned them down. Not even tempted. Well, maybe a little, but I'm not giving in. So, suck it, Tim Horton!!!

242

Wow, I’m shocked. And a little disappointed, but mostly shocked. I’ve had 4 whole days off work and I’m DOWN 2 pounds? Shocked because that never happens, and disappointed because I’ve been low carbing all weekend and I should be down more than two pounds. But I’ll take what I can get and just keep plugging away. While the carbs were kept generally low, I did have some sauces and gravies that had a few carbs in them, so the plan is to cut those out and also cut down on the AMOUNT of food that I’m consuming. I think I will be drinking Atkins shakes for dinner for the remainder of this week. I want to get into the 230’s soon. Hopefully within the next couple of days. I started my Power90 program this morning, that DVD is KILLER. The power yoga right at the beginning is brutal. The rest of the workout isn’t so bad, except for all the jumping, but man, I’m a bit sore from it, only a few hours later! I did the ‘sweat’ portion this morning, tomorrow I will do the ‘sculpt’. Tonight I will go to Curves on the way home, then walk for 40 minutes while I watch another episode of Nip/Tuck. Only two more episodes to go in the first season, then I gotta buy Season 2. Biggest Loser and Amazing Race are also on tonight, will probably have to tape at least one of those, but then I can watch them tomorrow while I’m walking. I don’t know what I’m going to do in a few weeks when all these shows have ended! Ack! So, keep your fingers crossed for 240 tomorrow!

244

Hey folks… still here, plugging away. I managed to eat myself up to 251 lbs while we were away for the weekend in Seattle, mostly from all the beer we drank at the Casino. Anyway, a lot of fun was had, and I gotta say, I am in LOVE with Red Lobster. We don’t have those around here, so we drove all over trying to find one while we were in the States, finally got there and gorged ourselves on all-you-can-eat shrimp. So, I’ve been dieting my ass off (literally) since we got back, and am back down to 244, mostly eating crustless quiche for breakfast, lettuce and tuna for lunch, and lean meat for dinner. Exercise is also going well – I have been walking for 40 minutes every morning on the treadmill, then trying to hit Curves on the way home from work whenever I can. I bought a shitload of low carb food last night, so hopefully I can keep on track this weekend. I’ve got 4 days off work, so it’ll be tough! Was out running errands yesterday at lunch and had a Mandarin Chicken Salad at Wendy’s. I gotta say, I’m not all that impressed. I have no idea why everyone is raving about Wendy’s salads!! Wilty iceberg lettuce, soggy mandarins, and a few cubes of chicken does not a spectactular salad make. It really chaps my banana that I had to pay more for a crap salad and a diet coke, than I would pay for a triple burger, biggie fries and a frosty. Where is the incentive to eat well??? *Sigh*

??? - I suck

OK, I’ve read through all of my normal daily reads – TWICE (had to check for updates!) – and now I have to just suck it up and write in my own journal. Yesterday was another shitty day, food-wise. Breakfast was a bad choice, lunch was a bad choice, and dinner was a bad choice. Oh, and that snack before bed? Also a bad choice. It’s so strange – I can almost hear the argument going on in my head about whether or not to eat something. It’s that whole devil & angel on my shoulder thing, but the damn food devil keeps winning. Gotta get that angel to the gym so she can bulk up and kick that devil’s ass when he gets mouthy. Leaving the grocery store last night, I thought to myself, ‘why did I just buy that? Why? Why?!?!?’ Then I promptly went home and turned the oven on before I even got my shoes off. Threw the goodies in the oven and before you knew it, I was sitting on the couch, so full I could hardly move. So today I am back on protein shakes, just for a couple of days until I can get back down to that 242 I saw last week. I bought a HUGE container of Proteins+ shake mix last week, and I’ve been slowly making my way through it – although I can’t wait to finish it cuz it’s kinda gross. I MUCH prefer the pre-mixed cans of meal replacements, although I’m having a hard time finding low-carb ones that aren’t $2 each. As much as I LOVE being Canadian, our shopping choices just aren’t as plentiful as in the US. So yeah, the plan is to stick to liquids today and tomorrow, which will be tough as we’re heading over to a friend's tonight. That always involves food and lots of drinking. Dammit.

246 - I'm back, though!

Sorry guys, I’ve been a slack ass for the past few days. I got a bad cold on Wednesday and have been lazing around on the couch ever since. Except for the Halloween party on Saturday night where we finally stumbled home at 5 a.m.! It was a blast though – I won for most original costume (I went as Holy Shit), and hubby won for funniest (Catholic Schoolgirl). And with the new month comes a new beginning. I will weigh 225 (or less) by the end of the month. Enough is enough and I’m not spending any more of my life being this fat. It’s disgusting. My clothes don’t fit, I’m embarrassed to go anywhere, I’m just done with it. So I will work out for at least an hour a day, and really watch what I am eating. I’m going to try to stick to a sensible eating plan, lots of veggies and lean meats with some protein shake substitutes. I can do this, really. I am going to Burger King for lunch tomorrow with a friend, and I will order a salad. We are also going to Seattle this weekend to see Rodney Carrington, but I will do my BEST to be good. Gotta watch my alcohol intake, which is tough enough, but we are also planning on eating at Red Lobster! Ack! Fried shrimp! After that, the rest of the month is event-free. Exercise should be good – I am planning on doing my Power90 DVD in the morning (as soon as it arrives), then Curves after work and a 1 hour walk at night. Buh bye, fat ass!