??? - I suck

OK, I’ve read through all of my normal daily reads – TWICE (had to check for updates!) – and now I have to just suck it up and write in my own journal. Yesterday was another shitty day, food-wise. Breakfast was a bad choice, lunch was a bad choice, and dinner was a bad choice. Oh, and that snack before bed? Also a bad choice. It’s so strange – I can almost hear the argument going on in my head about whether or not to eat something. It’s that whole devil & angel on my shoulder thing, but the damn food devil keeps winning. Gotta get that angel to the gym so she can bulk up and kick that devil’s ass when he gets mouthy. Leaving the grocery store last night, I thought to myself, ‘why did I just buy that? Why? Why?!?!?’ Then I promptly went home and turned the oven on before I even got my shoes off. Threw the goodies in the oven and before you knew it, I was sitting on the couch, so full I could hardly move. So today I am back on protein shakes, just for a couple of days until I can get back down to that 242 I saw last week. I bought a HUGE container of Proteins+ shake mix last week, and I’ve been slowly making my way through it – although I can’t wait to finish it cuz it’s kinda gross. I MUCH prefer the pre-mixed cans of meal replacements, although I’m having a hard time finding low-carb ones that aren’t $2 each. As much as I LOVE being Canadian, our shopping choices just aren’t as plentiful as in the US. So yeah, the plan is to stick to liquids today and tomorrow, which will be tough as we’re heading over to a friend's tonight. That always involves food and lots of drinking. Dammit.